Monday, February 21, 2011



You're scared I get it
I made you this way
so I'm trying not to hurt
because I gave you my body
but you cant give me your heart
I get it.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

What can I say I miss your eyes, nothing more


I cried and I screamed and I felt and I knew that I loved you
and letting go of everything before today is the only way to get through
rain and blades and dirty stages
threaten pure fairytales
that were never pure at all
and black winged fairies blind my eyes with magic dust
falling to earth after their job is done
they walk among us
With blue eyes and cold hearts
tell me what is real, when I loved the music because it saved
Ironic that it might change
to everything I hate becoming everything I love
as shallow as the black eyeliner flicked on the corners of the universe
Tempt me I am the temptress
I am your black winged devil
Crying for sunshine.
Lost in this city.
It will go one way or the other.
or another.
The thing about reaching for the light is you're doing it from the shadows
and the demons that lurk there aren't tired.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

The Neither Route


Ive got some inspiration so I can write better in a state of desolation
Maybe Im better alone where I can run without being followed
Ill never learn. I want your attention as much as I crave your contempt
He was right when he said what I'd never be if I never left
All roads lead somewhere And I've never walked this one before
Ill bury you in tourbuses and new cities
As much As I try I can't pretend I don't feel more alive
Dirty and left out but Im at the top
And every song about me is another victory
Its vanity, maybe sick, but its also for the kids
I'll miss your puppeteering
I'll miss the bed we made
But it's better to be hurting
Than watch the fire fade.

tonight, not again.

You tore me out of my fairytale with one look and one lick of your perfect fucking lips
and now all I can think about is your devastating eyes
the ones you looked at me with when you told me you would keep me forever
and the mouth that dropped the lines that made me sway made me a monster made me hurt him
I break concrete falling down for you.