Sweet Little Lie

If I ask you to break me down to pieces
I mean take the knife and put it where it hurts the most
Please don't spare me, because I can't spare a second more
The day you fixed these damaged goods
was the day I forgot what I was writing for
Because these days I write like shit
I can't get back to it, the way I felt when I was broken
I need it more than I know
I'm not whole without the suffocation of unsettling
I need to be unstable to swim
Who knew when you put me back together again
it would be the end of everything
so I guess in the end it was the pain that made me feel real
And the emptiness of now, it's just a seal
it covers the scars that have now fully healed
Or did you not notice?
And I could cry forever Because they helped me remember
Did it really happen
Did anyone care at all
I'm not a little girl anymore
but I still fall
over and over and over again
Don't think I can't pretend , I've made a living out of it
My smile might just make you fly
If you find what you want in hell's abyss
You'll find what you want in a sweet little lie