I swear you made my heart beat. And my blood move. You made it easy to live. You were the only reason I needed. I followed you down and I met your pretty friends
and I saw them do their pretty drugs on bathroom counters in places that became like home. And when you smiled I smiled. And when you moved the world I felt validated.
And we carried each other and you never let me down. And I met more of your pretty friends and their buses they called home. And no matter how bad it got, I always had you.

I don't know what happened.
Sometimes I feel like I've lost you.
You're friends are still around. But they aren't so pretty anymore. And your skeletons still litter my house. Beautiful dusty strings and wood and metal. Waiting.

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Alexithymia

Pronunciation: /ə-ˌleks-i-ˈthī-mē-ə/
Function: n
: inability to express one's feelings



Are you where you thought you'd be
So beautiful and only twenty-three
Opposition rests in the hearts
With no, with no, with no opportunity
It's not that we don't talk
It's just no one really listens and honesty fades
Like a politician lost in the course
All smiles and no one remembers our names
-Anberlin

What you are

A shell a wall, screaming for attention behind it
Calculated, predictable.
You're just like the rest of them
I couldn't open you up either
I should have known better.
But don't worry
It will work on plenty of other girls too.
Have fun.
Just know I'm not listening anymore.

"This isn't just goodbye
This is I can't stand you"

because I know what you could be.

title.

All I ever wanted is for you to scream it in my face.

I won't always love what I'll never have

I know I've left before
And I said I was going to do it again. And I am.
But I'd really like to say goodbye. And a lot of other things.

Pine(tree)

You've got to let it go
And once you do, maybe you can tell me how

Someone help me make this?

[Screamed]
when you fall let me know
a million times

[sung]
but ill be gone this time next year
the winters cold wont find me there
Burying images I meant to forget
Hiding the seasons along with regret

[screamed]
but I keep thinking about the winter
so who were you to draw me back
to this town I thought I left

[sung]
And if we were friends maybe you’d scream in my songs
[screamed]
the words I keep in
[sung]
yeah, but you knew all along
maybe if you lifted a finger for something other than drums
yeah but it was my fault
so scream for me now
[screamed]
come on scream for me now
[just screaming]

[sung]
but ill be gone this time next year
the winters cold wont find me there
Burying images I meant to forget
Hiding the seasons along with regret

[screamed]
but I keep thinking about the winter
so who were you to draw me back
to this town I thought I left


[sung]
I wanted out of this place
you said you’d take me away
and I was your chance to really be something
You said I was scared but it was you who held back
and you disappeared when I let you in

I need to make this right.
But I cant be friends tonight
I finally learned my lesson
Stay away from alchemy
unless you want the poison

family

some songs save lives

"And if these are my parting words
Then this, my last request
Hold me here, until I sleep
If I burn, then I burn for you"
-Anberlin