ByAssociation: May 2009

Sunday, May 31, 2009

This Is Easy As Lovers Go

I'm comfortable.

but comfortable doesn't win.

You don't have to stay; but I hoped you would anyway.

Another night, hot then cold

Did I really expect anything different

If tomorrow comes and you're not here

Well I knew EXACTLY what you meant

And the similarities between you and him

keep seeping through the framework of your

disconcerting so unnerving cold and shaking fingertips

I'm starting to hate the way it tastes the word he couldn't

find its all I seem to be able to say

but just like me you could never stay

why cant you be the same person on the street

that you are when you're lying next to me

you think this is something that I call easy?

I haven't cared in almost two years

I guess timing was never my gift

So when tomorrow comes I know you'll be gone

and what we've become? well you can't lose something you never had

don't worry I hear its quite easy getting over you won't be so bad.

and we both know you will be fine

when you never let them in, you don't have to be kind.

It meant something to you

But I'm still waiting for you to show up.

and I've been there before I know how this ends

it's unrequited, it's an empty doorway, it's a lack of pictures

but it's fine, we can be "friends"

right.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Everyone looks the same in the dark. Except they don't.

backstage blacked out

if you're lucky you might get a shout out

“that girl from last night”

it’s all you’ll ever be

falling over boys with drumsticks and microphones

and you still think you’re not a groupie?

It’s the way we get by

every boy with every lie

excuses and antidotes

just take the pills that make the pain go away

it wont give you what you needed, what you needed him to say

it will be gone in the morning with him and that 4 letter word

but you will never hear him tell you to stay

lets get real, every hand that plays every chord

every word screamed from those pretty lips

the waist you clutch as the lights go dim

the truth is you’re only seeing him

so let go. it’s so much easier to sing.

let go. you don’t want to hurt again.

when you shut it off you didn’t want to live

its a funny world we’re living in. let go.

a new day a new place. it really all looks the same

ohio winters are cold but my heart is aflame, and

it never was like you to stay and fight

crossed off brainwashed, i hate the way I am tonight

I only know how to be me when I’m with you, and I hate it too,

raw vulnerable crawling, I guess I opened up

Can you hear that sugarcult song echoing in the background?

hey girl you know how this ends so don’t let it begin

misunderstood, this angel boy has a devils grin

oh pretty girl is suffering tonight.

so let go. it’s so much easier to sing.

let go. you don’t want to hurt again.

when you shut it off you didn’t want to live

its a funny world we’re living in. let go.

she doesn’t know you like I do

how could anyone? this song isn’t about you.

it’s about all of you.

rip her down. tear her apart.

she’ll like it. because this one doesn’t want to be treated well

fuck me over. you know I’ll come crawling back

so beautiful in blue and black.

so let go.

Monday, May 11, 2009

"There's no shame in being afraid. Hell, we're all afraid. What you gotta do is figure out what you're afraid of, because when you put a face on it you can beat it. Better yet, you can use it. Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure."