Sid and Nancy

Because every other one ends except ours

The one's you left behind

rewind, in time, you'll find

you're the one I want tonight

We'll have it again

In this life or another

drugged up cut up

left outside

rooftop mistakes

musical suicide.

you know how I am

with the boys in the bands

and you think I don't know your secrets

but maybe I've just forgiven them

what we gave away is theirs now

and I'll learn to move on

be okay.

I can't always stay

I'll be better

Is all you ever hear

I can't change the past

But why would I

The moments I love

All lost in a driveway

I have a theory that Pete Wentz and Lil' Wayne are the same person

Around the world in eighty days

You can take me home I'll be your slave

happy unbirthday I'll watch you roll

and kill them with this evening mess

Time isn't real, you're standing still

lipservice proof and eyes that kill

When nothing else makes sense

I just want you in my arms

I want to tattoo a wish

Then disappear for awhile

God, you are so beautiful when you smile.

And when you say goodbye

She never looked back when she ran away

its not away if you want to go back

its not a mountain when your standing on top

lets all slip and fix it

I caught a glimpse of perfect

be wrong and do the right thing

smiled and got lost while you were away

I'll take your pain, I want you happy

Something's changed, but some things don't

The idea of what you love...

just love

its only worth everything.

Happy Holidaze

don we now are gay apparel

What do you want for christmakkuh?

Lost/Found

I saw a man without a face

He stared at me

I lost my place

How could he see me with no eyes?

He answered me with no reply

I must be dreaming this cant be real

yet, there the man is standing still

I began to think of his sad fate

And how we should appreciate

The things we see,smell,hear, and taste

The life we're given

We should not waste.

If revenge is your game Baby, you're a star

Like hell I would tell you anything

You think I messed you up?

Look at me, But I would never blame it on you

Have fun watching the ones I introduced you to

Have a fucking great time.

I felt sick about what I did.

Letter already written to your idol to see if he could help

3 years of words printed out you needed to see

Do you even care about what you did?

If it's my tears you wanted, congratulations you got them

You are the smell before the rain

You're right and I know it

But I've learned not to show it

I have built up a defense

It's stronger than your walls

because mine is invisible on the outside

they're seeing what I need them to

but on the inside I know that I'm slipping away

from anything resembling being okay

There's things we didn't tell each other

to protect ourselves to protect one another

eventually I'll face it but for now I'll just place it

in words on a screen that I know you will read.

I'm taking some time to work on myself

Because I won't let it happen again

I'm taking some time to figure it out

because the point was to not get hurt but I am.

You're Gonna Need a Bodybag

Don't waste your time aiming for jealousy

and don't say you're not, after everything you are supposed to be

And don't tell me you are a friend to me

If after 3 years of hell you would regress to this

Letting it go, back to the days of freshman mistakes

Back to the days of hanging legs over lakes

Of tears spilled for you, never addressed

of the boys with no names and the girls you undressed

Of the time spent waiting for you to come around

But you never did, the facade of moving on

I wouldn't be here If i didn't care

Don't act like you were waiting here

Scream it in my face, go ahead

I'm calling your bluff, I'm calling you out

I lost feeling remember?

Or did you forget that lonely september?

you weren't there, dear, to catch any tear

that fell and drowned me, baptized in misery

came out new, forgetting everyone including you

I had to.

So take your drugs

You know I can't judge

we all have our vices and we all have our places

we'll fear the most and flee to the coast

to get away from it all

Its sad to me, what could be

It could have been you and me

It could have been you and me

but it will never be

So I'll flee to the coast to get away from it all

You want it? Here it is! You had me.

You had me and you pushed me away

Don't tell me to stay

You never knew how, you watched me run away

you didn't care when I fell apart

I fixed it myself so what, now comes 21

and more things have changed

the general theme remains the same I guess in some ways

Theres still girls and boys

they still grow up fast

and I'm still the one with the backstage pass

Go ahead get mad, I'm sorry I know it makes you sick

But I always fell over for the one with the pick

It could have been us

Now I know how to let things go

Now I know how to live and let live

Now I know not to count on you.

You know it's true.

"When all my dreams come true, the one I want next to me. It's you. It's you, Peyton."

I don't even have to say please

Non-Fiction

That was the best summer of my life

My heart never beat faster and I

can't honestly say that I wasn't In love

what is it anyway

An idea beaten to death by reality

when all we will ever be is buried in notions of ideally

together is better and fighting is fine

I'll love you forever, and not forget time

spent next to you however short

this one is completely about you so please smile

We lasted this long, I think we can take on a lifetime

I'm not trying to string you along

because strings are for puppets and you can't be held down

I'm not lying so try to believe

the best part is I'm happy, but if it kills you it will kill me

We are poster children for how to balance this scene

And maybe it hurts at time but at least it's not fake

when the bass begins and the drums kick in and your next to me

It couldn't be anyone else

The music will bind us eternally

For better or worse, whatever the label

There's still songs to be sung

So Martin was right

Maybe two is better than one.

But two one's make 11.

Fiction

Three Years, Two Days

Since I first saw your pretty face

I don't dream about it anymore

I don't think about the way your lip curled

Or how your blue grey eyes looked in your dark grey shirt

How I found out you were in a band

The table we sat at, the placement of the sun in the sky

The boys like girls shirt I was wearing from the night before

They don't believe me

I don't think about you

And I'm not good at lying

But if I was, How would you know?

A Poem.

Stalk Me

Stalk Me

Stalk Me

Stalk Me

Stalk Me

Steal Me

Save Me

Stalk Me

Watch Me

Save You

Wake Up.

Retox

Detox

Find Me

Leave Me

Watch Me

Watch You

Destroy Me

Wake Up.

Stalk Me

Umm Yes.

Unblocked and Cut Up

So slash my wrists

The pain doesn’t even compare to the way you kiss

The words I left behind

Are all I miss

its just Like this

I cant go on

Its not a trick

This illusion is my real life

And Im living it

Tell me how I felt was never what i meant

The lies you said I told are falling off your lips

And all that I have left is everything you will forget

And its over but it never really was

Im sober and i dont like what ive done

lies, tears, alibis and all thats in between

you’ll fake a smile for awhile

and ill believe everything

So lay me down and mess me up

now move on with your life

the scars on the outside are nothing compared to whats inside

in you in doh!

Trace my palm with your finger

I've never really done this before

Happy songs don't come easily

And neither did you.

It blows my mind to know you question anything

Because when I look at you I'm overcome.

If you can't live without me, Why aren't you dead yet?

Heres a story about a group of kids I once knew

suburban living rules forbidding and time unwilling

were going to live forever

Too big for this town to keep us down

Oh yeah but while were here we'll rule the streets watch the city sleep

and we'll all fall down trying not to grow up

we'll all fall down falling in love

it's all the same when you are young

Time attacked and killed them in their sleep

And they never saw it coming until it was too late

When she slips away you'll hear her sing:

your bodies get bigger your hearts get thinner

your shoulders get colder your tears freeze over

so run towards the summer

don't look ahead or you'll miss it

this is the song of lost innocence

Nobody listens to what they don't want to hear

you can never come back here

So when they did the earth shifted

and the years fell down on them in waves of menace

landslides of distance in forms less resistant than friendship or words that can't be found

but need screamed

The curtain falls on this scene

They all fell down and they all fell apart

They forgot how to love when they moved to the coast

The dreams that they had can't be the same

They lost each other now they are changed

html success

Writers Block

Peeples,Karen. (This time it's about her)

Everything's Perfect

And you’re not here

Beyond the rational

lets reassess back down

lets let it rest

in pieces all around you

they fell and so did I for you

and you for every lie and every tear and every 

heart breaks at least once and I didnt do it

I just dent them

Leave you wounded, but so was I; so good now

And you’re not here

Hey where’d you go

You’re the definition of

what we said we’d never do

I never meant never thought I couldn’t handle..

still I lost you

Is there any question

any possible way

you drop names like its 

On the list, yeah I kept them all with me

secret...secret but definitely not safe

from the pain and the loss that you sent my way

still

Of course

is the answer

and It always will be

Its like the ones we felt bad for and now its you and me

Try to catch the drift from words you will never glance

I guess I could scream it in your face

And You’re not here

Let me introduce myself

I once had a place in your life

What were we again? 

I think it was called thieves

I think we were royalty

If you can remember? can you remember the end

of course I do, Of course it hurts

OF COURSE I MISS YOU

You were my best friend.

Yes, Even Stars Break

Well...

Ah La La La Life is wonderful

I'm no puppet

It's threads not strings holding me here

10 months I'm gone.

need.to.get.away.

It's 3am I must be lonely

So all this time I was just searching for a line worth crossing
A feeling that would make this chaos worth stopping
like the one we let slip through our hands in your driveway
There was nothing you could say to make me stay
Cardboard lists made to rationalize, yet still
With All those words you could never find
I was moving on while I was waiting for you
when fall comes and the wind is new
So, I fell and everyone knows it
and laughed as I played the puppet
with strings pulling in every direction
well forgive me If I couldn’t reach for you
forgive me If I was suppose to
have known you were even still there
And in the end
You were first, but he was surrounding me
And in the end
well everything ends
I wont say goodbye
We can call it closure
But the lid doesn’t fit
Let these skeletons turn to ashes
Lets breath them in
until the dust covers everything
Until it stops the beating
Of what once held something
I left half of it in your hand
and the other half in that fountain

and in the end
everything ends

and I never did. I never did.

Every Other Word

hole  digging  into  getting  deep  comfort

really  what  doing  why

 Ive  been  content

 do  do  things

 a  line  having  and

 Im  trying  say 

I  still  love  him

 beacause  that 

 am  faithful  you

any  you

I  too 

And  at 

Funny  only  line makes

probably  most one

Words are a Lovely try for something more.

Beautiful

In your arms

His voice

the clouds

Luck

and that they can all exist together

Comedic Break

If I Forget

You're just another boy without a crown

Is it considered stealing if it's already mine?

Because really, I'm just a line in a song.

Keep Me Where The Light Is

Surrounded by you

Today you passed through me

and I felt you

but you were almost invisible

My mile high obsession

maybe you remind me of someone I once knew

Or maybe it's just me.

You are always leaving

But I could never ask you to stay

Breathless

I can't find the words in your presence

You leave me, You leave me wanting more.

If I could leave this atmosphere

Find a middle ground

Will you meet me tonight?

Wearing my favorite shade of gray

And every new meeting I find you different

You are a stranger I know well, or maybe not at all

And as I write these words you are surrounding me

with your ominous serenity

And I still feel you hold the answers

to the questions I never knew to ask

In this atmospheric ocean

so above our earthly needs

I ask that you will please excuse my vanity

I know that you can't stay and I may never understand

I just need to know that you'll come back 

to take my breath away again.

Of one thing I'm sure

I will always find you beautiful. I will always find you.

TIme is not real. But if it was, this would be bad timing.

It's not the distance, it's the little things that are keeping us apart

And it's the big things keeping us from the little things

And it's the past keeping the big things in the present

And it's our pride keeping our past quiet

and the silence could be broken

but it won't

Be careful what you wish for

I secretly wanted you to

I secretly wanted you too

My mom thought you were a hobo digging through the garbage.

Thankyou for making it easier to listen

because every country has misunderstood middle class white boys that can only express their feelings through songs.

and it could not make me happier.

If It Kills Me

This place is beautiful
and you are so distant
It sounds so familar
like laying on the ballroom floor
but we did it just for the attention
or did we?

are you awake
are you alive
can you feel
can you heal
can you save
can you stay
I want it all
I want to give it all away

In these places that we've come to fear the most
I want you to come with me
but I might be okay if you don't
I want your words to fix me
But I might be okay on my own

I don't know enough portuguese to rhyme in it

This night needs no persuading
Noone here is hesitating
lack of words to press the issue
its getting heavy when I still miss you
but sticks and stones are still around
tripping those already down
bites and wounds and cuts and fear
and all the people we left back there
still around but not the same
like ghosts that haunt but cannot stay
we dont do it for the fame or glory
we just do it for the scars and stories
And for all the vanity we share
I really hope thats about her
because my metronome beats just fine
to all the songs we left behind.

When 4 years means nothing

This is honesty

You tried something else

Now I have to

I say this with no vindication

Truly honestly deeply

This smile on my face is real

and I can't throw that away

I say this with no anger hostility or regret

I say this only with fear

Don't let 4 years mean nothing

Your words didn't fall unheard

Let's not play semantics

Graveyards and fountains lead me to a balcony

And from up here you all look so pretty

I read your words better than I read faces

We are both victims of our bipolar mind erases

What did you hear this time that made you so mad

I am extrinsically tied to you forever for good or for bad

and this may not be what you want to hear

If only you could feel the view from here

feel and not see because we are what we do

This isn't about me this isn't about you

Im not the same person I was in the rain

and it wasn't the beach that made me this way

Maybe the picture you got wasn't quite clear

If you are judging by the words you see here

They are my release, they mean everything yet nothing

This is a revolution of sorts can you feel it coming

Don't listen to what they say

When you already know the answer

Everything that makes me sick

In some ways I'm glad it was you

It's easier to forget, when you act like you do

And as I spend nights searching for forgiveness

You'll spend yours being completely oblivious

Don't say you feel bad, we know it's not true

It's weird I almost felt like I knew you

but noone could ever get through as you sit atop your pedestal 

you were lost long before I came along

And in the end all I can really thank you for is this song.

"You're not him, you're better"

what I meant was at breaking me down.

You called me while I was writing this

Give me something to read

Words to make me smile and to get me through the day

Because it's been far too long, since I've heard your song

Give me your attention

and your promise

We've been planning for the future for so long

And I'm tired of lists, 

So Let's run away

We can start tomorrow today

Give me your ears

And hear what I'm saying

Catch the lines I'm dropping

Let's move forward by going back.

So give me your hand 

and take mine

and give me my ring back

put it where it belongs.

I'm Yours

Today I was praying for forgiveness and guidance.

My own worst enemy by Lit starts playing from the room next door.

God works in mysterious ways.

And I'm pretty sure he likes rock and roll.

Despite their claims to the contrary, Tiggers don't really like everything.

we look so good

we're so funny

so witty

full of hope and life

our smiles are contagious

everyone wants to be us

we live wildly

they live vicariously

and through us

the lucky ones

will find

tragedy.

I'll keep you my...

This Is Easy As Lovers Go

I'm comfortable.

but comfortable doesn't win.

You don't have to stay; but I hoped you would anyway.

Another night, hot then cold

Did I really expect anything different

If tomorrow comes and you're not here

Well I knew EXACTLY what you meant

And the similarities between you and him

keep seeping through the framework of your

disconcerting so unnerving cold and shaking fingertips

I'm starting to hate the way it tastes the word he couldn't

find its all I seem to be able to say

but just like me you could never stay

why cant you be the same person on the street

that you are when you're lying next to me

you think this is something that I call easy?

I haven't cared in almost two years

I guess timing was never my gift

So when tomorrow comes I know you'll be gone

and what we've become? well you can't lose something you never had

don't worry I hear its quite easy getting over you won't be so bad.

and we both know you will be fine

when you never let them in, you don't have to be kind.

It meant something to you

But I'm still waiting for you to show up.

and I've been there before I know how this ends 

it's unrequited, it's an empty doorway, it's a lack of pictures

but it's fine, we can be "friends"

right.

Everyone looks the same in the dark. Except they don't.

backstage blacked out

if you're lucky you might get a shout out

“that girl from last night”

it’s all you’ll ever be

falling over boys with drumsticks and microphones

and you still think you’re not a groupie?

It’s the way we get by

every boy with every lie 

excuses and antidotes

just take the pills that make the pain go away

it wont give you what you needed, what you needed him to say

it will be gone in the morning with him and that 4 letter word

but you will never hear him tell you to stay

lets get real, every hand that plays every chord

every word screamed from those pretty lips

the waist you clutch as the lights go dim

the truth is you’re only seeing him

so let go. it’s so much easier to sing.

let go. you don’t want to hurt again.

when you shut it off you didn’t want to live

its a funny world we’re living in. let go.

a new day a new place. it really all looks the same

ohio winters are cold but my heart is aflame, and

it never was like you to stay and fight

crossed off brainwashed, i hate the way I am tonight

I only know how to be me when I’m with you, and I hate it too, 

raw vulnerable crawling, I guess I opened up

Can you hear that sugarcult song echoing in the background?

hey girl you know how this ends so don’t let it begin

misunderstood, this angel boy has a devils grin

oh pretty girl is suffering tonight.

so let go. it’s so much easier to sing.

let go. you don’t want to hurt again.

when you shut it off you didn’t want to live

its a funny world we’re living in. let go.

she doesn’t know you like I do

how could anyone? this song isn’t about you.

it’s about all of you. 

rip her down. tear her apart.

she’ll like it. because this one doesn’t want to be treated well

fuck me over. you know I’ll come crawling back

so beautiful in blue and black.

so let go.

Who said it?

 "There's no shame in being afraid. Hell, we're all afraid. What you gotta do is figure out what you're afraid of, because when you put a face on it you can beat it. Better yet, you can use it. Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure."

If you think it's not you, I'd love to hear who

“If you don't like what you're doing, then don't do it.”

-Ray Bradbury

If it wasn't complicated you wouldn't be here.

I knew you agreed with me by the way you pushed me out the door

I never meant to be here but now I guess Im sure

Lets walk in circles and end up where we began

predetermined motions and your undeserving grin

So i guess you finally got your song

in the form of lies and pain

its no simple thing to pull me away from the game i live to play

fight, well, lets not unless its after dark

catching the burn from every spark of every firework that fell around us

Just like the 4 letter word you could never say

How could I expect you to love me if you never even asked me to stay

so heres to goodbyes and fountains

ice cream and infedility

to the smile on my face as you’re silently killing me

to every lyric being about you

to every line you dropped and every word I tripped over

to november 16 and boys liking girls

grey shirts and perfect noses

lips like morphine and walls that dont talk back, but dont mind you pushing me against it

I lived for it.

Smile Pretty! Well, Pretty will swallow you forever...

Δεν είναι για σένα.

But, 3 years of flash drive saved words that are.

my ears are smiling

The Real You- Unwound

Every broken heart deserves an epic ending. Tell me is this love or are we just pretending.

This looks like I could fall asleep and dream the reality I'm living forever

So please don't wake me from my real life

because nothing could be better

The air you breathe the rain that falls on me

taking us away its unlike anything

otherworldly, I could stay awhile

your skin your bones unravel and I lost myself 

in your arms 

and I could stay awhile.

 

Get lost in your mind for awhile

I'm willing to be happy at least for a night

It's not the scene your not my style

I have this habit, so wrong it's right

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

And the turtles, of course... All the turtles are free, As turtles and, maybe, all creatures should be

Cold and Sunny with a chance of Tommorow

I will always find you beautiful.

And you will always find me if you need to.

And we'll read between the lines because it's what we do.

There's nothing to prove We did that years ago

And it was real, and it was horrible, and it was the best thing

And we're smiling because it happened

And they may never feel that way

Lets be so vain, because we know that these songs are about us

and so it was written

in between the lines.

I could count all the bad things on the stars

but the point is

I'm looking up

Your tongue is the serpent, believe me I prey.

Bad decisions with the best intentions

Im getting out and you're getting far

Lets Make tonight last forever

Or at least a little longer...

This is wrong and we know it

but no one is showing it

I already know I'll get what I take

over or under it doesn't really matter

Im begging you to be my mistake

Change My State or State of Mind

Whats in a dream but what we cant have

You had my heart and I have your regret

We hold on so tight but you still slip away

I’d believe you tonight if you told me to stay

My worst enemy is a friend to me a lover of time

My worst enemy is my memory holding on to you tight

And daylight it hides what night will reveal

Im not as strong as I look

Im not as weak as I feel

And I still don’t believe a single word you say

The words you want are out of reach, but they've never been so loud.

better late than never. The best thing to come out of canada since hayden christensen:

Marianas Trench.

shaketramp.

let me know what you think.

djl

A ship is safe in harbor. But that's not what ships are for.

Do go less fast around this corner please
a key for my heart you’d never need

print yes or no and send it now

I guess I don’t need to tell you how

"....it's what you need to be happy so don't be."

I'm stealing last night's story

Making April

listen to 'so bad'

in love.